Saturday, August 29, 2015


(Side note before I start this blog post: I am currently sitting in a Caribou Coffee with my latte to my left, typing out this blog post, and I have never in my life felt so incredibly douchey.)


It is weird how much we change and grow from the time we graduate high school and go through a couple years of college. I feel like, in theory, it isn't weird, because obviously spending so much time in such a different environment is bound to change you as a person. But when you see the results right in front of you... I personally feel like I dissociate a little bit. It is very... weird.

Several examples of this have been brought to my attention in the very recent past few weeks. I began talking again with someone that I was very good friends with in high school, and some of the actions this person took recently disappointed me (to say the least). I discussed it with my friend Sara, and she told me, "they are not the same person from high school. The person you were friends with was someone else." That is so sad, but also so true. I think we hold the people we knew well once upon a time to these unfair standards, where we want them to behave exactly the way they would have when they were seventeen years old, because that's how we knew them, so it's only fair. But it isn't fair. I myself am not the same person I was when I was seventeen, not at all.

Examples of this were brought up recently as well:
1) Me being told that I sound much more mature and older now than I did when I was in high school.
2) My lovely friend Kira telling me that I was much more "aggressive" and demanding when it came to standing up for myself, and that it impressed her.

Those are two small things that were brought to my attention recently. I'm sure there are more. But it just sort of puts it into perspective. People grow and change and hopefully it is for the better, but even if it may not be how you want them to behave, they are growing and maturing in a way that will hopefully better themselves in the end. It's normal and fair for people to look out for themselves first. It's like what they say when they're giving safety instructions on the airplane..."put your own oxygen mask on before assisting others." Does that make sense?

So... yeah. That was a jumble of a lot of cryptic thoughts. I had stuff on my mind and tried to let it out.

Anyway. Life goes on. Short disastrous weeks of summer will hopefully repair themselves to go back to how it used to be. Right...?


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